I have somewhat dropped off the face off the earth recently.
My life is consumed...not by what I wish it would be consumed by...but by other frivolities.
I have realized lately, what a ridiculous fraud my life is, in comparison to whatit is everyone else perceives it to be.
I call myself a Jesus-following Christian.......but my time alone with Him is lacking.
I try to uphold morals and standards....but am not often speaking with the One who gives them.
I find that depth and insight are lacking.....because I am so full of the world and its garbage.
If I would only spend time with the Lord, the inward parts of my being would be purged of these things, and I would be refilled with peace and joy.
But alas, I meander my way through the days, being distracted and without purpose....just living to live.
Working to live.....sleeping to work....and rotating back and forth in that cycle.
Sounds pleasant, doesn't it?
[yes, yes........I was being facetious]
And then I hear in my head, 'Buck up, Milburn! You were not created to live life like this! Gird up your loins! [(I Peter 1:13) means to prepare for strenuous mental activity, and warns of the necessity to guard your mind (Proverbs 4:23).] Prepare for your day! There is a real spiritual battle going on!'
But.......that is not often what I do. Thus, the days are long....full of strife and every evil thing [James 3:16].
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Bed is calling..........I'll be back soon.
Promise.
[Yes.......at times I feel like this girl. ha.]
I have realized lately, what a ridiculous fraud my life is, in comparison to what
I call myself a Jesus-following Christian.......but my time alone with Him is lacking.
I try to uphold morals and standards....but am not often speaking with the One who gives them.
I find that depth and insight are lacking.....because I am so full of the world and its garbage.
If I would only spend time with the Lord, the inward parts of my being would be purged of these things, and I would be refilled with peace and joy.
But alas, I meander my way through the days, being distracted and without purpose....just living to live.
Working to live.....sleeping to work....and rotating back and forth in that cycle.
Sounds pleasant, doesn't it?
[yes, yes........I was being facetious]
And then I hear in my head, 'Buck up, Milburn! You were not created to live life like this! Gird up your loins! [(I Peter 1:13) means to prepare for strenuous mental activity, and warns of the necessity to guard your mind (Proverbs 4:23).] Prepare for your day! There is a real spiritual battle going on!'
But.......that is not often what I do. Thus, the days are long....full of strife and every evil thing [James 3:16].
I suppose to bare bones truth of it all......is that I desire simplicity. Truth. Honesty. Peace. Joy. Love. Kindness. Goodness. FAITHFULNESS. Self-control. Patience. Humility. Fire.
I suppose this is just one of those unexpected dips on the rollercoaster of life, that I did not see coming. But......the good news is --- there is a mountain to climb, and the whole world can be seen from the top.
I really don't have all that much more to say right now....I'm incredibly tired.
( :
Bed is calling..........I'll be back soon.
Promise.
[Yes.......at times I feel like this girl. ha.]
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